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[05 Jun 2007|04:07am] |
new schedule. school 6am-1pm work 130-730
Summer of love. Bike rides and breathtaking moments. Busy as shit, fuck it. just keep on goin.
I<3 chicago.
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I am god.
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[04 Apr 2007|08:57pm] |
My final grade was a 89.4
Damnit, go figure I would be that close to another A.
Oh well, Ive got a 3.75 right now- but ultimately sorta bummed on not having a 4.0
My new hectic life monday through friday is as follows.
Work 10am-4 or 5. School 5:30-11:45pm.
The days fly by, but whenever I feel down I just look around and think about how far I have come. I rarely get to spend time with sky, our schedules dont mesh very well. Life is great though.
My new bike project is an early 70's Mirella italian road racing bike. Super rare brand, Should be alot of fun to build up. The parts are slowly coming together, shaping up to be a yellow/blue scheme and will be my main commuter/bad weather bike,not taking any risks with the Bareknuckle. Between the bikes/work/ school- Im beat. so busy. but busy is great.
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I am god.
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[28 Mar 2007|03:06pm] |
Real quick...
got a job doing prep work at a place called The Handlebar.
Specialize in vegan/vegetarian food, and its a bar for cyclist.
Cool little place, nice fusion of things im interested in and a nice
observational position on entrepeneurism. God i spelt that wrong. hahah.
Sold the peugeot for $500 after I converted it. Sold the fetish for $700.
So Now im building skys bike, and my new Bareknuckle is in the process and They were paid for by my last 2 bikes. I like how that works.
2 more days of my 3rd class left. I have a 4.0 right now. Pretty amped.
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I am god.
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| peugeot conversion |
[09 Mar 2007|05:06pm] |
This is the way the peugeot started out-
Not all the way finished, but this is now-
cant forget my beautiful track bike-
And to CarlyCrisis:
I fucking love you.
We got the shirts today and We are SOOOOOOO STOKED!!!!! you rule so fucking hard right now.
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I am god.
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| school update |
[07 Mar 2007|07:33pm] |
My first two classes end in a week.
So far I received an A+ and an A on my current projects, and gotten A's on my 2 exams.
The peugeot conversion is finished!!! I did it super quick, pics will be up this week.
annnnd yea... im busy.
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2 bitchassniggas think I am god.
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[26 Feb 2007|02:00am] |
School is starting off great. I got an A on my first Exam which is 1/3 of my grade. Im cramming 14 units into 3 months of school.
Its finally about 30-40 degrees, So ive been able to ride my bike to and from school, and a couple downtown adventures as well. Everyday Ive been here Ive had a smile on my face the entire time. I absolutely love where we live. Its right in the middle of everything. Sure I hear drunk people at 2-4am every morning but Its great seeing people outside no matter what time it is. Im starting a conversion project this week. 1970's peugot road bike , bright green. Strip it all down and do the conversion, and got some black velocity's with black spokes/hubs, and some bullhorns to throw on there as well. See how that goes. Should be interesting. Also have some pics coming up soon of recent updates done to my current track bike.
All in all... Its kind of hard to touch on how well everything is going. I cant feel in depth lately, feel somewhat in shock still i think.
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I am god.
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[23 Feb 2007|11:05pm] |
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secret entries are the best!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I am god.
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| hello |
[23 Feb 2007|01:05pm] |
my name is dan.
im deeply loved by my girlfriend.
there is nothing in this world that she wouldnt do for me.
i am her world.
i make her happier than chocolate.
im amazing.
the end.
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I am god.
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| happy valentines |
[16 Feb 2007|07:55pm] |
Me and Sky's 3rd year
chicago is amazing.
Start school this week.
and i got hit by a car on my bike already hahahahh
life is so wonderful<3
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I am god.
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| sigh of relief. |
[04 Feb 2007|10:41pm] |
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Ive been way too busy. All the goodbyes, hugs, and tears were nice to get away from and get started on my journey. We left Sunday at 3pm and got to Chicago Tuesday morning at 7am. gnarliest drive ever... nothing upon nothing for hours. We had booked a hotel room at the Marriot downtown for two nights, so that was a nice break before all the fun began. Our new apartment is on the thirdfloor of a pretty old building, which translates to Very fucking narrow hallways, steep stairs, and unpredictable suprises around every corner. lol and things only get more interesting... One of the two coldest days of the year was the day we moved in, and to make matter worse- there was a 2 hour unload policy on our moving truck and he couldnt park in front of the building due to a bus stop. So we have two hours to move everything about 60 yards and then up three flights of stairs. wow... Its paid off though, everything is going great and almost done.
Still in progress, but heres part of the living room
This is our street
We have a stairway to a private rooftop, This is the view<3
Heres my little baby again!!!!
Heres the Kitchen Before and After... Ive been the handymanDan
thats all for now... I have to paint cabinets and blah blah. School starts soon and so does job hunting......
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| el Oh Vee Eee. EL eye Eff Eeee LoveLife. |
[27 Jan 2007|02:56am] |
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Sunday We leave for the drive across the country\
Hellooooooooooooo Chicago
Alot has happened.
Coming soon-
Apartment pics
Going away party pics
road trip pics
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| DANZIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIG |
[01 Dec 2006|01:40am] |
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Last night, Danzig @ the wiltern!!!!!!!!!!
Last two songs- Special guest- FUCKING DOYLE!!! Two misfits songs. WOW.
Amazing night.
Yesterday me n sky left early and went shopping on melrose for a couple hours, then went and checked in at The Standard. I had won a contest a while back for work, whoever got the most new clients, and won some money towards a trip. So i decided to just book a suite for the night we were gonna see danzig. It was amazing, very swinger-ish??? hahahha. weird, but fully amazing. Nice and big, amazing view, room service for dinner, breakfast in bed for sky. It was something we needed, Sort of pay our last respects to CA for a while.
This week is somewhat of a wrap up for us. I Worked my last day as a title rep today. Now i have to go work in a restaurant, dreading getting a new job. Sky graduates Friday from Paul Mitchell. Nick is now coming with us to chicago for sure. Everything is coming together. So now, Ive gotta tie up all the loose ends and get some random things taken care of.
Im not going to lie, november was by far one of the most stressful months of my life. But in one month Ive overcome more than ever.
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I am god.
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| lol |
[27 Nov 2006|04:39am] |
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life is funny.
90% of people will try to discourage every choice you make. ie: Moving out of state, Sobriety, Life commitments, etc.
Its as if noone wants to see you succeed. Especially in something they know that they wont succeed in.
I change my life's plan alot... I always have, But the most comical part is....
Everything I do, I end up succeeding in and surpassing everyones expectations.
If you cant succeed at one thing, Youre wasting the air I need to breathe.
Im on this weird mission in my life to abolish negativity. But only within my life. as if its fucking WW III hahahha. If youre negative to me, Ive noticed that you will get greeted with some bad karma. Its a creepy thing, but I must prewarn you. It always happens. hahahhahaha. try me.
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| ugh... thanksgiving family feud. |
[25 Nov 2006|10:56pm] |
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black flag- police story |
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My weekend in havasu for thanksgiving went as follows:
Lots of drunk people
Lots of bars (you can smoke inside in AZ)
Keep in mind i no longer drink nor smoke
I was the DD all weekend
Almost fought my dad
Mom made me leave because she thought i was going to beat the shit out of my drunk father.
Cousins and uncles aunts- allll wasted. obnoxious.
::sigh::
Fuck.
but:
I got to be a bro and ride my dirtbike before I sell it.
Went on the lake and drove the boat around while every1 got hammered.
Read alot of my Henry rollins book. its pretty weird
I really dont know what to say. Dreyer family tradition eh?
Id like to end this positvely though-
I never thought I had this strength inside of me, Im excited.
I will never again have a sip of alcohol or a single ciggerette. Theres no going back on that, i will only look forward. And I finally did it for myself. <3 I love you dan dreyer. Im glad Im you. HAHHAHAHAHAH
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I am god.
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[22 Nov 2006|07:56am] |
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I started reading a collection of Henry Rollins' writing today, and enjoyed a nice latte. He's definately a bit out there, but I relate to him alot. I got sky a book all about boston terriers, Our little monster is comming the first week of December!!!!! I cant wait.
I feel wonderful. I feel accomplished.
the fact that I could finally do it.... Im never going to look back.
I feel free, the way Ive wanted to feel for a long time. Free of any sort of addiction in my life.
Ready to face this world, with a mind so clear like never before.
Reborn.
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I am god.
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[21 Nov 2006|05:43am] |
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Path of resistance- broken heros |
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Dear Carly from wherever you reside these days,
I listened to my bane cd for the first time in i dont even know how long, at least 2 years. anyway, you were the first thought that came to mind hahahahha. I wasnt a cr00sh enough d00d3 to be visited in cali...shitty.
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in other news-
DAN QUIT SMOOOOOKING!!!!!!!!!!
yea pretty amped on that.
somehting else kinda cool happened...
Dan quit drinkkkkking!!!!!!!!!!!
after cutting down on both for quite a while, I finally bit the bullet and went all in. I feel great.
what else am I proud about- Oh yea
I learned how to skid on my fixed gear. pretty gnartastic.
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| test results |
[17 Nov 2006|05:13am] |
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algebra- 98%
English 1- 100% (bahhahahhahaha)
600 word essay in one hour- 93%
i still got it. im excited.
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I am god.
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| ten.weeks. |
[17 Nov 2006|05:08am] |
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10 weeks and Im Chicago bound.
I love how when i see something i want, I grab it.
Looks like Me, sky, and nick will be road trippin very very soon.
I cant wait.
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I am god.
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[15 Nov 2006|07:34pm] |
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I've never updated via sidekick. Kinda weird, but I think I like it. I'm out working in Redlands and Yucaipa right now, its hot as hell. Soon ill be in chicago wishing it were warm hahaha.
I've realized I've grown a lot away from my bad habits I had struggled with for so long. It feels nice to be proud of yourself. Conquering demons and growing from it is powerful. I feel like I don't fit in sometimes. I don't like drugs and I like to be in reality a lot more now. I don't have anything to escape. Life in itself is an adventure enough for me. But for those who sit in an existence of repetition and have no real plan of progression-have fun putting holes in your brain, i understand your coping mechanism. I just don't agree with it.
Meh... right now eating healthy and being active is my drug. Adrenaline and love will conquer any substance.
Fit body = fit mind
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| biggest fear |
[14 Nov 2006|09:52pm] |
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13 minutes after I posted my last entry, I was on the phone with skylin. I was trying to give her directions through irvine- aka worst city to be lost in ever. All of a sudden I heard a huge bang and lots of bending metal and screams and then the phone hung up. I immediately was in tears and was pacing back and forth in my livingroom trying to call her back over and over again. I repeated the word NO about 43 times in horrified tears. The phone rang and she was crying frantically and screaming. All i could imagine was she was trapped in a place where she needed help in 3 minutes or she would die. stuck in some ravine. Paralyzed. Something was happening that would change everyday and every second of the rest of my entire life. I honestly felt as if these were her last words to me. The only comforting voice on the face of this earth and the last time id hear it. I was feeling things I had only imagined but worse and it had always been my biggest fear that I would lose skylin.
She totalled her car in an accident on that rainy night. She came out unscathed and safe. I keep replaying the thoughts that crowded and rushed my head for those couple of minutes. the scariest moment of my entire life. I have never felt such an attack of emotion in a split second, like the last 3 years of my life flashing in front of me. Every smile coming at 500mph just to worsen my panic, to kick me while i was down.
Its hard to describe the intensity of this feeling on that rainy, lonely, and uncomfortable night.
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That little silver jetta... It was one of the first signs that I had achieved something I dreamt of. The look on skylins face, she thought it was too expensive-Like the perfect one she really wanted but knew it was way more than what we had decided on, yet I could buy it for her and make it happen. I felt I could give her the hugest deserving gift I had dreamt of one day giving her. The gift that everyday she'd remember me when she drove it. The fact that I could finally rest assured she'd be safer in this car than the deathtrap she was driving. It was a milestone in my life. I put blood and sweat into that little silver jetta. It was a long time coming, the hardwork and the complete payoff and satisfaction it was...
But now were starting a new journey, ina new direction. Im glad she was in that car and not her old car. I think she would have been seriously hurt and flipped the explorer. Im grateful for the payoff of the hardwork that kept her safe...
New beginnings.... heres to our new life. One step at a time.
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I am god.
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| Devil's Love Song |
[11 Nov 2006|09:28pm] |
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dan dreyer unplugged |
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Baby girl tell me what do you see?
Is it the- evil in me?
Tell me girl is it a big suprise-
That Im the Devil in Disguise?
Could you tell by my devil walk?
Or was it just my sinsister talk?
Ive been searching for someone dead like me
and you fit that description to a T.
-Come on baby girl sign right here.
- Youll never again have a single fear
Tell me baby why youre dead like me,
This answer is truly key.
We can rule this whole damn world
JustWatch these opportunities unfold.
Because Im the master of wrong and sin
I tear people down from within
Theres nothing here that I cant do
But I need it to be done with you.
- tell me baby if youre coming soon
-To my palace where its always june
Everywhere I go they all know my name
But noone can break down my game
Im the dark that everyone holds inside
With all those lies and secrets they hide.
This can be yours when you sign the line
But just know now Your Soul is Mine.
- tell me girl if your coming soon
- to my kingdom where its always june.
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I wrote this song for Skylin. Kind of humorous but in a weird way that noone else but us can understand, its perfect. we compliment eachother perfectly. A match in almost everyway. Together we stop at nothing to get what we want. We continuously have broke down barriers and made a life for ourselves, and I love skylin renee more than anything. My fucking soulmate.
Love you monster<3
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I am god.
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[08 Nov 2006|07:50pm] |
As Im walking, i pause to look back every so often.
Each time, everything is the same. Everyone is standing in their circle talking and waiting for someone to take charge... Yet I keep walking and walking.
The further I have walked- the farther away from everyone I am.
however, I travel consistently. And theres no shortcuts...
you people are just buying time... Maybe I will See you one of these days at the end of wherver this journey takes us... All that is certain in my mind is that- I will make it.
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I am god.
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[06 Nov 2006|12:51am] |
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lol red devil squadron |
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this weekend was interesting....
Kinda lots of different emotions. Weird. Buuut-
Im back in South County, and it sucks already.
My phone was sacrificed to the alcohol gods this weekend and as a result of the cingular black shaneequa being a huge bitch to me I cancelled my service.
How are the sidekick 3's? anyone?
I dont really think I can even type here what im thinking...
Im pretty much disgusted. i cant find the words for it.
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I am god.
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| whole new life... Almost. |
[01 Nov 2006|09:54am] |
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This weeks events... My bday is tomorrow, and I move on saturday back with the parental units for three months before our departure to chicago.
Ive had a good week so far with skylin
Went to Olvera street toget some Dia de Los muertos decorations for our new place in chicago.
Then headed over to the fashion district and did all the downtown LA stuff.
Last night we saw saw3 for halloween. Did all the halloween party stuff friday and saturday.
blah blah.
Work sucks.
I hate these people.
I hate orange county.
And now im in for the big upset. Moving back to south county.
Im gonna be just sooooooooooo ready to leave after being there for a couple months.
It will be a good thing though.
I cant focus right now.
My mind is going s many different directions, and past 21- birthdays are fucking stupid.
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I am god.
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| 20 Reasons why I'm awesome. |
[11 Oct 2006|03:45pm] |
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Im not gonna lie hahah- LeTigre |
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1. I drop everything and follow every dream I have.
2. You wish all guys were as understanding as I.
3. I can be feminine enough to understand and be clean, but not some sceney faggot.
4. I can judge guys' looks (ie: That guys hott HAHHAHA)
5. I have small feet so when i wear converse i dont look liek a clown.
6. I ALWAYS mispell the words JUST and LIKE... they end up as jsut and liek. mehhh
7. Im open minded as hell (hell accepts everyone- therefor-- ya know)
8. eyeHateGod
9. When I dont like somehting about my life- I change that shit right away.
10. I dont let peoples judgement on me change who I am.
11. I will fight and die for the ones I love like no1 else you know.
12. I put so much god damn intensity in anything I do.
13. Even though im years ahead, I dont treat people differently.
14. I match ALWAYS.
15. Duh. Dont wear red with blue or red with green.
16. "just when you think you know me, Im in the fucking west maaaan" hahhahaa
17. Put 5 beers in me- youve got a standup comedian.
18. always the one to say the things everyone else is afraid to say.
19. I give advice better than Dr. Fuckin Phil.
20. im good in bed. uh-duh.
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[06 Oct 2006|05:17pm] |
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(insert many cuss words here)
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| still amazed |
[06 Oct 2006|12:10pm] |
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Last night I had to meet up with an old friend because hes owed me money for almost a year and he finally had a 1/4 of it.
I got there and a couple of my old friends were there with him. I was so set back by what theyre doing with their lives and how uch has changed- Meaning NOTHING.
Fucking losers. I cant get away from them. Dont get me wrong- i dont give a fuck what you do with your life, but Im talking about people who were my BEST friends. We were tight always, and now It pains me to even glance at them. I cant stand it. they jsut get fuckin wasted and hang out with 16-18 year old girls. Everyone they associate with are people they always supposedly hated and whatnot.
After seeing them I was kind of out of it all night. Just kinda bummed out and not very social.
Went to some testosterone pumped night club full of persian and mexican guys. Sweat everywhere, fuckin Ew. yada yada- playing all that fucking radio rap thats full of lil jon yelling some stupid fucking word over and over again, with background percussion that sounds liek mariachi- Basically fucking Papas n beer. grrrrrr. Wishing i was drunk So i could tolerate all that bullshit.
anyway-
I know so many people... almost to the point where I hate it.
Every city in oc I go to, I know people. I see people everywhere.
Out of all those people, And every other douchebag on this planet, Why Do I only care about 10 of them???
Am I jsut totally a raging asshole.
no.
Well Kinda.
ugh.
People amaze me. Its been a long time since someone's done it in a positive way.
I give up. Fuck off.
Ill be in my own dwelling, listening to fast pissed off music and drink a 40.
Realize theres noone i feel like seeing unless im drunk and go to sleep.
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I am god.
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[06 Oct 2006|07:53am] |
I hate orange county.
Trying to find dumb ways to keep myself entertained.
Youre disposable fun.
And you people make me sick.
keep your friends close, and your enemies closer.
I'd like to stop getting "idiot shivers" every time I talk to someone here.
Save me.
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I am god.
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| goodtimes and goodbyes. |
[02 Oct 2006|07:29pm] |
I feel like Ive been saying goodbye to OC. Kinda taking advantage of the things I love here and paying my last respects, so to speak.
Saurday night sky took me to see american hardcore... best date ever. thats the way to my heart hahhaha. I loved that film.
last night we went to see Leon Russel with Grampy and his friends, because i knew it was important to him. Ive been trying to spend as much time with him as possible, so that one day Im not kicking yself in the ass when I cant anymore. He got me a jack daniels edition Peavey acoustic also... fuckin beautiful guitar. I love it, the guild is still an amazing guitar but this one is a close second.
anyway we went ona stoney adventure to see leon russel and then to loco after. Another way to my heart. hahahha.
Anyway. very good weekend. very tired now.
Can i leave now please?
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2 bitchassniggas think I am god.
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[28 Sep 2006|09:27am] |
la la la laaaaaaa I wanna leave.
Oh yea... Im leaving.
:::poof::: never to be seen again! I will dissapear into the city, you fuck.
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I am god.
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| recent travels |
[20 Sep 2006|11:00pm] |
This is life. Hold on tight
Navy pier
My home.
Crazy chic
Love from the 96th floor
riverrrrrrrr
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I am god.
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[19 Sep 2006|07:38am] |
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i dont wanna grow up.
i wanna be a toys r us kid.
everyone else can fuck off.
basically. i wanna play and be silly, but i dont want to belong to this super "mature" get drunk everyday lifestyle everyone i know seems to live. its getting to me man.....
gettin ready to fucking explode.
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3 bitchassniggas think I am god.
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[13 Sep 2006|10:48pm] |
So I will possibly be using this monster to commute..
Fetish cycles Position frame, sittin on some pretty black shoes. Yeaaaaaayuh, doing the daily in this beautiful city:
Mothafuckin' LOVE LIFE!
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I am god.
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[10 Sep 2006|11:21pm] |
moving.... is gonna be hella expensive.
Thats right. I fucking said "hella".
hahhhahha. so?
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[06 Sep 2006|09:10pm] |
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So today I did 3 phone interviews with culinary arts schools that called me. The plans for school and a new residence are falling into place.
Aound januaryish, Im selling my car.
Were keeping sky's.
Im saving that money and using it to pay rent 6-12 months ahead of time, In either Portland or Chicago. Preferably chicago.
My lease is up the beginning of november which is awesome. Ill be staying with the parentals for about 2-3 months, which will be very weird but smart. Ill be saving about 2 grand a month in bills.
im thinking I will have saved a good 15 grand before leaving. Awesome.
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I suprised sky tonite with a Dan creation of fried steak style tofu stir fry. Which included grilled asparagus, carrots, and zuchinni- with fried rice and gonuchi noodles.
Im beyond excited to finally be back in school. Not to mention the freedom i will have to live in every major metropolitan city in my life.
It seems like my old plans and what was already going to happen in the next couple months works perfectly with these new plans. As if it were destined. Everything is becoming clear, that subconsciously i have been everywhere in the last couple of years that i was supposed to. To learn and to grow, and improve myself so that when a destined opportunity came, ID know it.
my current job has fueled a wonderful lifestyle for myself and allowed me to live what i thought i wanted. It taught me that I lacked the passion in my life. I aslways knew I was supposed to do somehting special....
And just you fucking wait what will be in the works, for the next couple years.
::sigh:: here we fucking go man. this is where life really will start.
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I am god.
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[06 Sep 2006|08:41am] |
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I think i wanna cook.
I want to do things my own way.
chicago or portland..... Ill be seeing you soon.
I think it may be time to hang up my ties and be passionate about something else other than Money.
Id rather be surviving and happy then to be making tons of money and stressed as fuck.
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2 bitchassniggas think I am god.
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[28 Aug 2006|08:18am] |
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Yesterday we started in the LB and went to palos verdes, redondo, manhattan beach, and hermosa.
Ive never even been to some of these places, and theyre only 30-40 min away. weird.
I was seeing these amazing high rises and condos everywhere I went. I also was seeing all these less fortunate homeless people everywhere i went.
I realized how easy life is... It doesnt take much to get by and do your shit. It takes minimal effort to be able to afford a small apartment and make ends meet. So i really dont feel anything for these homeless people.
But I always think i need to be able to afford a $2 million house one day. I NEED to have everyhting I have always wanted. And why is that? Why cant I jsut be so stoked about having a siple apartment life and do my job?
its hard being your own toughest critic.
no matter what i accomplish, theres always more and more.
I hope in 5 years, When im staring outside a 26th story window of a penthouse and thinking about my 7 series valeted outside- this will all stop and Ill say to myself..."I made it"
CHICAGO. less than 24 hours.
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[25 Aug 2006|03:20am] |
Leaving for CHi town in 4 days. thats amazing. And now skeet is going with me so, that jsut makes it that much better.
Last week on wednesday we left for havasu. Went with my parents to check out their new pool at the havasu house and take the boat out. it was very very relaxing and uch needed. Then we went to the Avi on friday for my grandparents 50th anniversary party that my parents threw. there was 70+ relatives of mine there. That was pretty fun. I had to do a small speech in the beginning and was told about 5 minutes prior. It was an extremely emotional but wonderful night.
Everything is going well. sobriety has been well. Ive learned alot about myself this year. Experienced some emotions that were fuckin crazy at the time, but good lessons.
Its funny the way time flies and everyhting changes.
I slowly pull away from everyone more and more.
I just want to be a homeowner, and I wont stop till i get it.
the end of this year is going to bring
- new residence
- french bulldog
- the end of coin laundry
- Beginning of a life in a new place.
im not too on track right now though. I think im thinking too much about drinking and quitting smoking and being healthy. It stresses me out. my hair keeps getting thinner and thinner... ost likely from stress- and it stresses me out.
This career is taking a toll on my body... starting with my hairline.
its all pretty depressing.
in other news...
Im getting a Rolex bitches.
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[15 Aug 2006|09:45am] |
i dont like very many people.
basically i appreciate...
skylin the sweeetest
Nick the bestest and sloppiest
Ryan the most pissed off and pessimistic ( besides myself)
Jenna the phone call advice giver
and besides that... I really appreciate Mike and Nora. Because they remind me that nice smiling people exist.
i wanna leave.
fuck the ocSleezy
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[09 Aug 2006|08:48pm] |
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As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs, and sit alone and wonder...
In this war at home alone-
Its the perfect eery feeling yet so comfortably numbing.
As if I accepted the past 3 months to be the rest of my life.
The lights are dim, and the sappiest horrible acoustic music blares on and on.
I take in a strong wiff of the sweet aroma of marijuana.
With half open eyes and a mind thats racing in 3846673 different ways at once,
It is apparent to me why I hide in this mindstate.
With guitars strewn across the floor, wires and cables going everywhere, 4 track recorder, 2 turntables n a microphone.
The fucking stop and rewind button on the 4 track is worn out because of how many times I have re- done every small detail. fucking perfectionist.
and thats it. creativity.
The environment in which I am most comfortable to pour my every negative thought and every ounce of pure emotion. I can reach so deep and pull things out from inside that I never thought would cross my mind again. I got so used to this.
I go back and forth a million times changning my outlook on myself like Im my own rediculously strict and meticulous critic.
Theres a war going on in this environment I create.
But then I step back.
This fucking beautiful example of living and breathing pure life.
SO much pain to know youre still alive. Inhaling hate and trying to somehow exhale eternal happiness. trying to fix this fucking mess of a world we live in. Cant do it. fuck it.
But...
NOW, I have the continuation to the story. The plot has thickened, and now we see where the story goes.
I dont need to exhale happiness for anyone else except her and I.
I can do my part to ensure happiness and years of smiles and laughter.
Years of exploration, and abandon all respnsibility for anyone else.
Thats us.
It makes the painful pages fade, and stored only as reminders of a reason to keep pushing through anything we encounter.
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Its the beauty in that sunset behind a 10 car pileup on the 405 with Women screaming for their injured children. You feel you have to stare at the accident and fix what you cant fix, But peer beyond it and realize the once in a lifetime opportunity of an example of perfect and truthful beauty.
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and so the story rolls on. From here on out its flawless, I cant put down the book- whats next for us in this World Vs. Us.
<3
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[06 Aug 2006|07:27am] |
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life is just awesome awesome.
work is going crazy, as am I 5 days a week. But life's been good.
Havent been drinking besides a couple beers here and there. Suprisingly, thats been very nice. Last couple months ive gotten tattooed a bit. I now am one piece away from a leg sleeve and one piece away from finishing my arm sleeve. I think ill finish both, the rest of arm is being dedicated to telling god what a prick he is. And after getting my chest done, im jsut itching to charge my rib cages.oh man, thats gonna feel great. I love painful tattoos.
got some cheap recording equip., but i think Longhair is going to record my songs and put some piano to them. Maybe youll see a "Dan Dreyer Experience" myspace soon. hahahha. thatd be classic. me acting like Im sad, and p[laying guitar to it. Im in the process of writing a song about how much south county is a big fuckin bag of flaming Douche.
im off to the beach bitches.
fuckin chicago in 20 so0mehting days.
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[27 Jul 2006|07:30am] |
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i have 6 months to change my life in amazing ways.
I can do this.
I always win.
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[24 Jul 2006|08:00am] |
This weekend was awesome.
Saturday night nick, sky, ryan, clarity, and I went to the fair. Pics will be up later
Sunday sky and I went to SD to go check out the area a bit more. OMG ate at Pokeez. Potato veggie buritos and potato taquitos.... Fucking insanely good. Got tattooed at Guru for 4 hours. Explored some more.
I'm ending my single irresponsible life.
Working towards our new life, together again. I cant stop smiling.
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[17 Jul 2006|12:20am] |
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Amazing weekend.
-SD with nick... We were supposed to surf but we ended up exploring everything for hours. Figured out that we need to live there.
-Bike rides to the beach all day today. just absolutely wonderful day. Withhh the sky
-CPK for dinner and Spectrummmmm.
-Saw pirates
- finally got my chest tattooed. fuckin sweet
Im finally at home after all weekend.
and have to start my work week in 7 hours. hahah fuck.
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